yh: I did that for 2 months, I could do that for another few more days. But when I started talking about my pay, the conversation diverted into my attitude. In fact, read carefully, I was saying how I learnt to keep my head down and keep going.

I wrote this post not to recount my experiences, but to see if my thinking was still rational, and yes, I am still thinking rationally when it comes to my attitude. I still think its rational that I am neutral to everything, because faking any enthusiasm would be hypocrisy.